Hey y'all
As you know, my chemo is more than half way over and I've pretty much 'aired' as much as a person can air about their cancer journey.
For the past 5 months I felt like I've moved into a glass house. I chose to share every detail of a very private and sometimes painful experience. I did that because writing about it helped me heal. And in some cases, reading about it, helped you understand my situation better.
The purpose to this 'glass house' has been well fullfilled.
You, the reader, has been kept abreast (haha, pun intended, couldn't resist) on my situation and I got to vent.
But, after some time I realized I do not wish to live in a glass house. First, it freaks out the neighbours whenever they look in. Second, there's too much light being let in. The time has come to get some curtains, close the doors and shut the gate.
No more lookie-loo's from a distance. No sireee.
From now on, at Casa Knock Knock, you'll have to be invited in.
In fact, you should call first, and if we're up for a visit, we'll set a date.
You know, like 'normal folks' do it.
And while the voyeur in me may have some adjusting to do, I think in the end I'll be just fine.
I will learn to live with not having everyone know my business.
I may even flourish.
Thanks for coming along for the ride, the journey or whatever we want to call this time.
I appreciate your thoughts, your prayers, your comments and most of all your friendship.
I know (because I can see it in my stats) that you've been reading and that you care.
And it means the world to me.
Please leave your email address in the comments if you wish to continue reading this blog and would like me to add your email to my limited list of readers.
(There is absolutely no guarantees that I'll add it to my very short list, but if you'd like to try, by all means leave it for me please) and an automatic email will follow should your email be used.
Oh and if you're not on the list?
You may just have to pick up the phone and call to see how I'm doing!
GASP!
28 comments:
Pick me, pick me! Mandi@darngoodlemonade.com
Fair enough Michelle! I'd love to read along if you are comfortable with it. Laurashannonsmart@hotmail.com.
If you want me to, I would love to continue reading along with your journey. I hope you find the switch to a private blog helpful to you in your journey. embracingtherain at yah.oo dot com
You know I'm here for you. I agree that it might be time to close the curtains and regain a little privacy. It's a tough enough journey without having someone peeking over your shoulder all the time. That said, I feel priviledged to have shared your experience this far and would feel priviledged to continue following your progress. You have my email.
I'm used to you coming in and out of the shadows. I think I've followed you through a total of 4 blogs now. Here's my blog e-mail: vancouvercalling@yahoo.com so I can follow, but remember, I never check it. You know my personal e-mail.
I imagine this wasn't an easy decision for you and I appreciate your wanting more privacy at this point in your journey. I would like to still read, comment and support you going forward. I am pretty sure you have my email, but please let me know if you do not. Thinking of and praying for you. Hang in there. (((HUGS)))
Hey there! I totally understand your need for this - it's just another step in your healing process, which you are doing INCREDIBLE at!! You've got my email!
Mandi - this totally reminds me of Junior High, and me being a total overachiever, lol.
Laura - thanks for leaving your email for me.
Embracing - that was a clever way of disguising your email from all the trolls out there :)
Sayre and VV - we've been there, done that, together for 4 years now... you know the drill. Thanks for your everlasting patience.
Kathy - my kindred spirit, your email is safely tucked away, thank you for wanting to continue to follow me :) I too, want to keep reading yours as well.
Shonna - I love all your positivity. It's like having my very own cheerleader in my corner. Thank you.
amymcdonald89@gmail.com A fellow candian. I hope, regardless of you adding me that you do well, adn keep well and do indeed flurish!! I could wish nothing more for such a strong, passionate and honest woman such as yourself!! And that glass house?? I can see you in your bath robe AHHHH!! No I"m just kidding :D all the breast!!!! (ok, you know once I typed best and realized I could do it I had to!!!
Take care and God Bless!!
Amy :D
(Kitty is my pen name!)
Thanks Kitty - Is this your first time here? I don't remember 'seeing you' around.
And, yes, I put on my robe, sheessh...damn windows. LOL
Say it ain't so! I would miss your smart-ass humor and balls-out approach to cancer. I'd love to be on the A-list (nancykhicks@gmail.com) but if not, I'll still wish you best of luck and consider myself happy to have "known" you.
niksmix2011@gmail.com here is mine.. Thanks for being such a great friend.. Having a hard time commenting..
Pink - how kind of you to say that :) Your blog definitely is one of my top faves as well!!
Tweets - thanks for the new email address, I only had the old one...
Hi Michelle.
You have my email address. I'm glad to see you doing what you know is best for you right now.
Sending love your way.
Andrea
Um, you should have my email address, but if not, estarkman@rogers.com.
You'd better add me to your list. If you don't I'll move back there and spy through your glass house. That would be freaky, so if I were you I'd add me :)
Eileen
PS - You're one of the strongest women I know...it honours me to know that we're friends, and we've known each other for several years (like 8 years now!!). Love you.
Hi, I mainly want to say I wish you well and pray you have a good long life. I to am in Canada, Vancouver area.
If you would like to add me, my email is katklassen@hotmail.com
I have! I do post as Amy, or Amy McDonald, which is my real name, Kitty is my pen name. You've been to my blog www.thatblueblur.blogspot.com I have fibromyalgia and you commented on a post!! But I've been here pretty much from the beginning. Though I don't comment all the time!!! Nice robe!! Looks fluffy!!!
Hey Michelle,
I know I am late to the game, but we do have a history. ;) If you don't add me, I understand. I will continue to pray for you. greg.jeff@gmail.com.
I hear you Michelle. If you're comfortable, here is my email addy: hamiharri@gmail.com
Hey Michelle! I would love to continue following you. I believe you have my email address already. If not, let me know and I'll email it to you privately.
I know you feel exposed, I completely understand. It's an incredibly private ordeal and it's really really brave of you to share thus far.
Just remember, you and yours are not alone through this journey - that's why we all read. We want to support you and help to carry you through, even if at a distance. We CARE and just want you to know that we do.
You're going to be great after all this is over - you'll feel better - you'll be back to normal in no time. Just hang in there through the rest of icky chemo and the light on the other side is soooooo close. Dig in your heels for just a little while longer. =) You'll make it.
Lots of love and support for you,
Melissa
I should have remembered to ask, will we know if you've added us before hand? Or will we just check in one day and see your posts or not see them?
Amy
So far everyone who's commented and asked to be on the 'list' is already added.
What will happen once I go private is that there will be a message instead of the blog that says something like "this blog is for private readers only. You have to be invited to read this blog" and then it will have a sign in option. That is where you go and enter your email address and voila - you'll be able to be back here reading as usual. It's an extra step, but not too much trouble hopefully :)
All that to see you're scanty pyjamas?! Well, I guess I'll try!! :D
Love your reasons for blogging in the first place and love and respect your reasons for wanting to go private at this point. you've got my email address already :)
Hi,
California Kate here. Read quite a few of your entries; and I am mightily impressed with your observations and coping.
email address is
kathryn1222@netzero.net
My very best friend just got her implant; more than 20 months post surgery.
Please take very good care.
(((Kitty)))
Hey M- would like to keep up to speed on your journey. tammy.morison@reveraliving.com
Hi, yours is one of my favorite blogs. We have so much in common with our cancer experience. If you'd let me I'd love to continue sharing with you.
Thanks, Robyn
jsemanko@gmail.com
Hi Michelle
I just found your blog today. I'm 70 years old with a new diagnosis of cancer. Your blog has been such a joy to read because you're facing cancer with humor, aggravation & grace, not to mention good info for a newbie. I've had surgery & radiation. I don't know what comes next. I'm an illustrator, so my diary is full of drawings instead of photos. I wish you well... I'm sorry I didn't find you in time to continue reading.
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