Friday, May 6, 2011

Photo-op missed

My thought process this week was to spare you all the whiny noisy bits of me complaining of how rotten I felt.

So, I didn't blog.

Then someone told me I SHOULD blog about it so that ya'll would know I had bad days too. So here is me blogging about how lousy I'm feeling.

HA! As if you didn't already know I had bad days!!

Alas, there were a few this week, so there. Cancer sucks.

Maybe it's the rainy weather that is hurting my hips but I feel old again. My hip is bad, my back is sore and I have a funny pain that I thought was in my ovary. Went to my doctor and it turns out it's my bowel.

I'm just constipated.

Great. My doctor just told me I'm full of poop.

And now I'm telling the world.
Maybe I'm not the smartest cookie in the box.

Oh, a funny thing happened though... remember this post? I got an anonymous comment on it today about this. Check it out - my random visitor is FAMOUS!! He was in the Ottawa paper today!! And now since I blogged about it, I am forever associated with this nutbar... you should see the google searches I get when I look on my stats (No kiddin'... people are looking up this religious group, and now I come up on their search - Sweet!)

Now I feel like I should've gotten a picture with him or something...

13 comments:

Vancouver Voyeur said...

Sometimes when you're feeling crappy, it does help to curl up in the fetal position on a bed, grab the phone and moan and groan to a friend how awful you feel. A problem shared is a problem halved.

Kathy said...

Glad to have an update from you Michelle! I am sorry that you feel like crap. I hope that it helps in some way to be able to vent and to know that we care. We care and we want to hear how you are doing, no matter how you are feeling and what that means. Hang in there. (((HUGS)))

This Sunday I will be walking the 12th Annual Beverly Breast Cancer Walk in my neighborhood here in Chicago. The proceeds go to one of our local hospital's Breast Cancer Center. It will be my 6th time in the past 7 years on Mother's Day. It is such a beautiful and moving experience to start my Mother's Day bright and early every year with 10,000 + other women who care about our loved ones (as well as those we don't know) that have been touched by breast cancer either. The only year I missed since my friends and I starting participating was the year I had Molly, as I was recovering from the c-section to deliver her.

Anyway, I will be thinking of you especially on Sunday as I walk with my mom, my sister and some of my friends. We walk for you and others that have breast cancer and I have a feeling that the experience will take on a whole new meaning for me this year since I have gotten to know you my kindred spirit.

I hope that you have a wonderful Mother's Day and I wish that you were celebrating it without having cancer, but I am so very proud of you for making the most of this very difficult and uncertain time in your life. XOXO

Mandi - www.DarnGoodLemonade.com said...

Billboards!?! You should have gotten his autograph, maybe it would sell on eBay... I am sorry you feel crappy. :( I keep counting down to the day that I don't have to worry about stupid side effects and planning my life around when I think I will feel good vs. when I won't. Hang in there! You have 3 left!

Knock knock - it's cancer! said...

VV - this is the part where you give me your number, right? Lol.

Kathy!! Sooo happy to read a loooong comment from you again, haha, I've missed those! You know I am very touched that you are walking this sunday and I have come to appreciate these walks so much more now... I've never participated in one before, but I fully intend to from now on (not now, since I can barely walk myself - but once I recover) and yes, I get how this makes it more personal now since you've come to know me :) I hope you have a fantastic mother's day too and that you enjoy wonderful things like home made macaroni necklaces or breakfast in bed created by little hands... I'm looking forward to mine and appreciating it more than I ever have before, let me tell you...

Mandi - I know, right? Totally should have gotten his autograph, it could have probably helped with some of the out of pocket expenses related to this whole cancer thing, haha. I SO TOTALLY get what you mean about planning things on the days when you know you'll feel good vs. when you will feel bad. Just today I started getting some heavy joint pain, so I told Brad he needs to get the walker out from the garage again, since I know I'll need to use it again for the next few days. Happy mother's day to me as I cripple down for breakfast... what a sight! But hey, you are almost done girlie!! So excited for you!!

nbrsspot.blogspot.com said...

Happy Moms day my friend.. Hope all is well and yes you should have gotten your photo with this nutcase on your door step..LOL.. I hope things are going better today.. I havent been reading again in the last few days.. Been busy trying to keep up at home. anyway Hope those beautiful children and Brad have something special up there sleeves for you..

Sayre said...

Yeah, but that autograph will only be good for a limited time only.... IF this guy knows what he's talking about! ;0) I'm betting he doesn't. If I knew the world was going to end in a couple of weeks, I wouldn't be going door to door to tell people about it - I'd be LIVING my life! Walking a beach, driving a country road, hugging my kid. Eating chocolate and not worrying about where it will take up permanent residence on my body...

Knock knock - it's cancer! said...

Tweets - happy mother's day to you too, hope it's a good one :)

Sayre - yeah, never thought of that... limited time and all... jeez, May 21 IS coming up pretty quick, come to think of it. I would eat chocolate and ice cream too if I thought that was it. Oh and lots and lots of nachos... late at night while watching tv. Sigh.

Conquering Cancer By Living Well said...

Hi there! I left you a note on my blog as well! Thanks so much for writing! I just wanted to ask, are you on neulasta shots? Those cause major aches and pains. Same with Herceptin, but I'm unsure if you're on that one? The Neulasta goes well beyond your usual "feeling crappy days" with chemo and it's sort of hit and miss - some days you feel okay, some days you're ready to scream. I hope you are feeling better soon!

Vancouver Voyeur said...

I'd be happy to, but Yahoo deleted all my old e-mails so I no longer have your e-mail addy to send my number. :-)

Knock knock - it's cancer! said...

Conquering - yeah I'm on the Neulasta ... and I am sooo familiar with the bone pain that comes with that... but these joint pains that I'm feeling right now are from the Doxetaxel unfortunatly (one of the side effects of this chemo drug)

VV - Hmmmm.... it's my first name and last name at g mail . c o m

Tuesday22 said...

Sorry you're having a hard time, hope the pain gets better. My husband saw your walker photo and freaked out--he thought he was going to have to get one for me! I agree--that Neulasta shot is funky--I felt okay yesterday morning until I had to go in for my shot, then felt sort of crummy. But what are you going to do, right?

pinkunderbelly said...

Cancer does indeed suck. Couldn't have said it better myself. Keep blogging, though, even when you feel crappy and don't have anything nice to say. The world needs to hear it all--the good, the bad & the really bad. Hope the joint pain goes away real soon.

McCrackens Mom said...

Hi Michelle.
I've been away from the blogs for awhile and am just catching up but I wanted to comment on this one. Yes, please share when you are having crappy days, if you are up to it. We all know you are positive and fighting but I'm afraid if you only feel you can share that part of you, you don't get a chance to cry out when you need to. I appreciate you sharing your thoughts with us all. Sending love your way.
Andrea