Sunday, March 20, 2011

Things are looking up


I think I'm on the mend.

Today, I don't feel like a 90 year old woman, I feel more like a 75 year old.

That shows improvement.

I'm cautiously optimistic that the pain will start fading, and the joints un stiffen soon and I will be able to walk on my own.

The first 2 days after chemo weren't really that bad, mostly I felt nauseated and crampy. Sort of like my worst period ever combined with pregnancy queasiness.

Brad made bacon for breakfast and I vomited. How's that for a 'thank you?' Not that I didn't appreciate the effort, but the smell sent me over the top.

Then, on day 3 my limbs started feeling heavy and stiff. I felt like I had just ran a marathon... yeah, as if that would ever happen. Still, nothing too disturbing, just sore and uncomfortable.

Until 10 pm on day 3. That is when it shifted from uncomfortable to unbearable. I felt the type of pain I cannot describe accurately. Deep inside my bones. Pain from the inside out. Everything hurt, even my teeth, my guts.

Day 4 remained the same, where I was immobilized still by my body. Walking to the bathroom became a field trip out of bed. It took two of us, and about 10 minutes to walk 5 steps.

This morning is day 5.

I woke up feeling a little better.

Like I said, less like a 90 year old and more like a 75 year old.

I walked to the bathroom all by myself.

That in itself is worth celebrating.

14 comments:

Sayre said...

I'm glad you're feeling better - even just a little, as awful as it's been. I hope you get a little respite before you have to do it all again.

McCrackens Mom said...

Do they allow you to take anything for you discomfort after chemo? Anything to relieve the nausea or the pain? Any little bit of improvement is good isn't it? You're a brave girl.
xx

Anonymous said...

Baby steps...
I'm proud of you for posting through all of this, and for posting positive words. I, for one, know that you're brave and wonderful, and based on the comments I've read, other people feel the same way.
Keep up the awesome recovery!
Eileen

Mandi said...

Oooh, I am sorry to hear you got that queasy! Did you get your Nuelasta shot? The bone pain/discomfort sounds a bit more like a side effect from the shot. They told me that the pain is less and less with each shot (so I am crossing my fingers that it is what was hurting, so that it will hurt less next time).

Kathy said...

I am sorry to hear that you have been so uncomfortable and in such horrible pain. (((HUGS))) Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way. I am glad that today you are feeling at least a little bit better. Hang in there. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! But that doesn't mean it isn't going to suck a lot of the time... I am proud of you.

Sami said...

And somehow you still make misery sound entertaining ;-) I hope tomorrow you feel 55. One day closer to feeling like your old (and by old, I mean young!) self! XO

Knock knock - it's cancer! said...

Hi all - a bit of a setback yesterday, the pains started again, just as I was optimistic that it was all over. I called my oncologist, he said 'it's normal' and I should have another 2 - 3 days of bone pain left :(

Thanks for checking on me. I'll update more later.

Beth L. Gainer said...

WOW. I'm glad you are feeling better. Hey, 75 is better than 90. I always took going to the bathroom for granted until I went through chemo and had all sorts of issues.

Keep feeling better. You'll be 65 before you know it.

pinkunderbelly said...

You are one tough chick. Keep on keepin' on (like we have a choice, right?). It will get better, and this is temporary. :)

Kathy said...

Thanks for the update Michelle. Though I am sorry that things may actually get worse (or at least stay the same) before they get better. That really sucks, there is no way around it. :( You will get through this, but that doesn't mean it will be easy or that you have to be happy about it. Holding you close in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS))) Hang in there.

Attila The Mom said...

Hang in there! Big hugs!

Anonymous said...

You can do it Michelle! Today you should see the light at the end of the tunnel and this weekend you should be having some fun again. By the way, how did the port work for ou last week? No problems? I sure hope so! Sending you BIG gentle hugs and some sunshine xoxo Dana

tweetey30 said...

Glad to hear your on the mend.. I have been missing in action for a week or so. I have been trying ot keep up at home here. but hope everyone is good otherwise. miss you.hugs my friend.

Vancouver Voyeur said...

Do you have a jacquzzi or hottub? That might help with the pain.